I am.

I fight my battles. I work really hard at it. When a problem comes up, I stress, and then I brainstorm, I make a plan, and then I go for it. You see, most of us, when we really get down to it, are fighting our own battles. We feel like they're ours to fight, right? But, what if they're just too big for us? What then?

Right now, you could say I'm fighting the Chicago Public Schools. Not really, but it sure feels like it. We're moving to the city of Chicago this summer with our five (yup, I said FIVE) kids. And, our oldest is heading into high school, which is already just too much for this sappy mom to handle. But, now we are working against a huge bureaucracy to get our kid into a decent school. I could go into all of the details, but the reality is, we missed all of the deadlines and there doesn't seem to be much I can do. At this point, I've made all of the calls, barked up every tree, and sent in all of the paperwork. I did it all. I fought the good fight. But, my foe is too big, too impersonal, too imposing. There is really nothing I can do.

But, God. There is something God can do. He is the one who makes a way, who lights a path, who opens doors. 

So, how's it all gonna turn out? I don't seriously know. But, I do know that God is in control. He's got me. In fact, he's got the "whole world in his hands", right? So, I'm not going to stress. If God is God, then I really need to let him be God in this situation. So, I'm going to let him fight this battle, and I'm gonna be still. I don't mean that I won't be doing my part, advocating for my kid. But, I am going to still my anxious heart, still my erratic emotions, and trust that God will work it all out. Because he always does.

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The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still. 

- Exodus 14:14